So I went to Ash Wednesday Mass at 7 today and I can say while the homily was short and sweet, I got a lot out of it. I really needed hear what he had to say tonight because I was wondering this whole time “what now?” I know I am just learning walk after two years, first learning to crawl and now walking on my own, but the next step would be to run right? I wondered how do I go about listening and opening myself up for the pieces and answers once again, for my next steps? What are my next steps? While I haven’t quite resolved those questions just yet, the pastor today made a good point. Lent is 40 days for us to get to know God and Jesus.

We are marked with ashes as a sign of reconciliation and rebirth with the sign of the cross being Jesus’ reclaiming us once again like the moment we were baptisted. And this thought provoking question presented by the paster is true.

Its not what are we going to do during Lent but what is GOD going to do for US doing Lent?

This is something that I think many us forget or neglect to think about during Lent. We’re so focused on what are WE going to do such as what to give up but we forget that it’s what is God going to do for us? How is going to reach out to us and what gifts does he have in store for our lives during this Lenten season. The gospel point for today was the traditional one Matthew 6: 1-6, 16-18

(Jesus said to His disciples,) [1] "Beware of practising your piety before men in order to be seen by them;
 for then you will have no reward from your Father who is in Heaven.
 [2]"Thus, when you give alms, sound no trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, 
that they may be praised by men. Truly, I say to you, they have their reward.
 [3] But when you give alms, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 
[4] so that your alms may be in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you. 
[5] "And when you pray, you must not be like the hypocrites; 
for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and at the street corners, that they may be seen by men. Truly, I say 
to you, they have their reward. 
[6] But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret; and your Father 
who sees in secret will reward you.
 [16] "And when you fast, do not look dismal, like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be 
seen by men. Truly, I say to you, they have their reward. 
[17] But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face,
 [18] that your fasting may not be seen by men but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you."

This gospel always speaks to me because it's very true. 
You don't have to go around professing that you are devout Catholic or whatever religion you practice. 
You don't have to post bible scriptures to show you "study or read" the bible at all times and how well versed you are. 
You don't have to say how blessed you are to the world and shun those who may not practice the
 same way you do or "study" the bible as you do. 
You don't have to announce to the world that you go to church every Sunday or how much you give or what you do.
 I've said this before and I'll say it again, your relationship with God is personal, 
something to built between you and him and not the world. 
Just like with any human relationship we have, the one with God is personal as well. 
So I think that's something we first and foremost must try to do, get rid of our pride and need to show off 
"how much we love God and know him". The question is if you do that, do you really know him? 
Maybe this is time to change that type of attitude. 
Prayer, Fasting, and Almsgiving
This is what Lent is about. 
Praying to God as if he our friend, our parent, our love, our everything and just talking to him, having a regular conversation
 with him as if we would anybody else. Nothing special. No chants needed. No books. Nothing. Just you and God. 
Fasting or letting of go of what binds us. from what keeps us from God. Whether that be a broken relationship, an insecurity,
 a secret, etc. Letting God give you strength to overcome what keeps your relationship with him, yourself, and others from being stronger. 

Almsgiving by helping not only others but yourself. Fixing yourself through others and by opening yourself up to the mercy
 that God shows us. 

This Lent I challenge you all to find the one thing that keeps your heart locked from God, to unlock your heart and let 
God in to show all the blessings and gifts he has for you during these 40 days and 40 nights. To get to know him, Jesus, and 
yourself freely. 
How will you let God heal you?
 Lent is not a negative time or a time of sadness but something positive. A time for rebirth and rebuilding your relationship 
with God. An opportunity to change and get closer to God once again. 
I will leave you with this tonight my readers...

What’s going on readers. So yes I fell off the wagon COMPLETELY. I went way too hard too fast and ended up being sore for two weeks. So I decided why not restart for Lent starting Ash Wednesday. So during the time in between, I planed and evaluated what I needed to work on. And yes I am Catholic, so Lent is an important time for me.

Two years ago, I went through a significant change in my life. I had fallen and hit rock bottom in my life, and God gave me a second chance. I was reborn again during Christmas time in order to make a change within myself. So during Lent that year, I evaluated what lead me to my darkest moment and worked on it till the present day. And I must say I am a different person now. So each Lent, I vow to make changes, big or small in order to better my life and my relationship with God. So this is what I’ve come up with for a plan of action during Lent.

1. Get fit

Okay Yes I’m small already but that doesn’t mean anything. Being small doesn’t make anyone healthy or fit. So instead of attempting to go everyday, I’m going to workout every other day. I’m going to start off small tomorrow by going for a run early in the morning and then do core workout at night. Rotation will be every other day until I can handle an everyday rotation.

2. Get Organized

My mind is full of clutter so I decided to keep a day planner with me at all times. This way I can be less stressed and better prepared for all my projects. As I see it, life is getting real now so I need to build strong organizational habits for my clients.

3. Budget

I am horrible at this one and I know I can do better. So all of lent I will not be purchasing anything. I’m going to learn self control in regards to money and really start building a savings, especially since I’ll need it before and during the time I take the bar.


4. Letting go of fear

This is one is hard to explain but there’s something I’ve been fearing that I don’t want to fear anymore. So during these 40 days, I’ll seek guidance through meditation, God, and who ever God leads me to for answers, well pieces to the answer.

Now I have a couple more but those are more personal. But any in case, I hope you all enjoyed Madi Gras aka Fat Tuesday. You’ve partied, indulged, and enjoyed the holiday and now it’s time renew yourselves. Use this time to really connect with God for piecing together the answers you need to build or fix your relationship with God and yourself. To fix vices and build brand new habits. A lot of times we let the world discourage us from being the best we can be but this is the time to change that. God is waiting with hands wide open and strength to give. Remember he does not judge us or punish us for where we have fallen but patiently waits for us to come back home and give us strength to overcome.

So Day 1 begins to day and remember email me with your progress and stories for me to feature.

What’s going on readers? I know I’ve been a way for awhile probably should have posted on the first but that’s so cliche. But Happy New Year Everyone! It is now 2012 and regardless of what 2011 brought you, remember this is you’re fresh start, a brand new beginning, a brand new chapter. God has brought you this far so if you are still battling with past demons or other emotional problems, this is your year to change that. God will give you the strength to make changes but you have to grab his hand first. I know some of you are probably saying “easier said then done,” and you’re probably right but nothing in life was meant to be easy. She’s a female dog with a shot gun but that’s where you take God’s hand and make a plan. Baby steps, crawling, standing, walking, running, THEN you can run. But let’s talk about the planning part.

This subject means a lot to me readers because I’ve been where some of you are right now or were. I’ve been trapped in complete darkness, broken, and ready to give up on everything, and every day I thank God for the second chance but second chances aren’t meant to be wasted either. Its never too late to start over so let’s talk about how to start over.

There’s an old saying that it takes 21 days to break a bad habit. Some say 7 days but let’s be real with ourselves, the 21 sounds about right. Going 21 days without doing something is extremely hard especially when your subconscious kicks in and starts reminding you of how much you love that bad habit, or “its just one time, no harm done.” That’s how we fall of the wagon. Now 21 days doesn’t just have to be applied to bad habits but good ones as well.

A few months ago, I tried this. I knew it would be difficult, I knew it would be hard, I knew I would fall of the wagon and have to start over. That’s the key though, getting back on the horse and trying again no matter how many times he throws you off. I have to admit, looking back I started off pretty bold with emotional bad habits which takes lots of discipline and lots of patience. I fell off…several times so I had to change my strategy by starting of more simply. So I chose things like 21 days of just drinking water (cleansing) and 21 days of no soda. And let me tell you, my mind was definitely peer pressuring me with things like “how about 1 soda a week”….and I had to tell myself NO! And 21 days later, I barely reach for a soda and I drink a lot more water. Next I moved on to emotional problems which I have truly gotten control over like insecurity and forgiving more.

So here’s my challenge to all of you and myself included, let’s use 2012 to fix our vices and start new habits. 21 day Challenge of your choosing! Email me at with your 21 day challenge each month and each week I will include not only my progress but my readers as well! Let’s start a trend by fixing ourselves in order to change the world. Don’t forget ARK either in your 21 day challenges 🙂

My first challenge: Working out at least 30 minutes per day for 21 days straight.

et cetera